Starting Right Now

As I sit here typing this, it occurs to me a simple undeniable fact. My life is not bad.  Then what is it? What leaves me searching? Wanting? Its like when you're standing on the beach and before you know it your feet are completely engulfed in sand. You look down and think for a moment. What if I just stood here? How far would the sand raise up? Would it cover me whole? You even dig your toes in deeper.  Before you can finish the thought you're struggling to get out.

So. I get out.  This year has been...its been rough.  Emotionally. I Ended a relationship with who I thought was, "the one" (that'll be another blog for another day), and directly into the arms of a God awful rebound (yet another blog).  To come out well, kind of stuck in the sand really.  After sometime contemplating first, how in the heck I managed to get this God forsaken position, I then spent even more time on how to get out of it.

There you have it really.  The true catalyst behind my most recent desire for transformation is...Was someone else.  After the breakup I felt like Alice in Wonderland.  Leaving the conventional behind and plunging, (admittedly unwittingly) into some magical nonsensical world.  Having had my fill of magical size adjusting food I've finally got my legs under me and I am ready to discover just what Wonderland has to offer...

enter...New York

enter this blog
and enter me deciding to share my experience of process and transformation as I make myself aNew...

most importantly I hope someone out there can relate and perhaps grow a little or a lot themselves <3